Stroll Down Memory Lane

I took a stoll down memory lane last night. As I was trying to fall asleep, a song by AFI came on. The song was a live rendition of "God Called in Sick Today." An excellent song, it brought back some rather fond memories. Mikka, my first girlfriend, introduced them to me. One day while we were hanging out, my parents decided it would be cool to go to some crazy restaraunt in Oklahoma. It was about an hour and a half drive, and Mikka had just gotten a new AFI CD and was wanting me to take a listen to them. We listened to them on the drive down, and I became fond of a few of their songs. It just took me back to the choices that I have made in life, and wonder if they have been the right ones. In retrospect, I feel that they have been correct. Even if they haven't been, I have no control over the choices I have already made. They are what they are, and I have to make the best of them. I dated Mikka for about nine months or so, and ended up breaking up with her to go out with Jennifer. I realize now that I broke up with her for all the wrong reasons, but realize now that it was probably one of my better choices in life. I broke up with Jennifer to go out with Melony, who is now the love of my life, and also my wife. Anyways, back to Mikka. Mikka's mother, Nickla, is a wonderful lady, and I still am very close to her and the rest of the family. I called Nic last night on a whim, and for once she actually answered. We talked about some of the memories that the song brought up, and we were talking about some of our memories. The music flooded me with memories and thoughts that I did not know that it would do. The memories were very mixed, with sadness and happiness. I am not sure that I loved Mikka, but I do know that at the time I loved her as much as a sixteen year old could love anyone. Nic made the comment that I was a peach and that she would give anything she had to have two just like me, one for each of her daughters. I realize that had I stayed with Mikka, I would not be where I am today, in the military and chasing dreams that I have had for as long as I can remember. When I was six, I told my parents I wanted to be a firefighter. I have always wanted to serve and help others, and I fell that I am doing that now. Mikka was always fun to hang out with, and we could talk for hours and never run out of things to talk about. Melony is the same way. When we started dating, we would talk for hours on the phone, and we are still that way. We average about 3000 minutes a month, so we are definately chatterboxes. I realize that even the smallest things can trigger memories, some fond, others not so fond. Until next time...